Saturday, May 23, 2009

I trust Him

You know, I used to think believing in God and trusting in God were the same thing.

Turns out I was wrong.

I have believed in God my entire life. I love Him. I love being comforted by the fact that I will someday meet Him. I believe He has a plan for everyone and everything. I believe that God knows the ins and outs of our entire being. I believe He knows why I am where I am in my life right now. I believe He, in fact, put me in this exact place. I believe He knows what's next. I don't know but He knows—and He knew before I even existed on this Earth.

But the thing is—while I have always believed in God, I just could never fully trust Him. I digress. I couldn't trust myself—and because I couldn't trust myself, I couldn't allow myself to trust Him. Which is crazy, right? How can you believe in someone and not trust them? How can you believe that they have a plan for you but not trust in that very plan?

How could I?

The honest answer is 'I don't know'. I really don't. All I know now is that I do trust God. I trust Him completely and unabashedly. I trust in His plan for me. I trust that He is guiding me in the right direction. I trust my future in His hands. I trust Him with my life.

I've never been able to say that honestly before. You know, because back then I thought belief and trust were the same thing. Turns out I was wrong. But it's never felt so good to figure out the right.

Jesus answered, “I am the way and
the truth and the life.”
John 14:6

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